half of my soul :laptop, e’net, and writings !!

why can’t you just say : "hey! i’ve fallen in love with someone else lately, and she’s much more beautiful than YOU! and why don’t we stop seeing each other?"

yeah..why, particularly, MEN can not just say that simple sentence instead of making more and more excuses that his freedom has been stolen lately for making commitment to their existing holy relation-SHIT? why and why and why?

why can’t i just understand?? why can’t MEN tell ?? or why can’t women be accepted they way they do?? which one is true, which one is not, or even more than one notions are applied?

*this case isn’t about me.i am just merely showing my dissapointment to whoever commiting such an idiot action!!

a bit relief.

Vulpes vulpes
Plee
Unik
Pikun
Jelek
Kepeleset
Kesiram

aaaaaaaaaaaaargh…………..those the things that i have MISSED so much lately !!!!
wanna go home sooon
wanna meet u in person
wanna wanna wanna

our to-do lists have fulfilled my book, and they even need new piece of paper!!

kangenkangenkangenkangenkangenkangen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(mari berdangdut bersama rhoma irama….yah…sangat dangdut becoz merindu very sangat of terhadapnya him mode : ON) kikikiki…

we can feel that the lost is real,yet sadness is hidden behind the emotional bars..

we can feel that the absence is always thought to occur in an unpropriate time,but fortunately, the soul still remains..

we can feel what we don’t want to feel..the deprivation of other’s dependencies..well..less reliance on someone would be good for us…but there’s never a good time for being ready, though..

that sounds of piano..that silly jokes which you always laugh at..that dior+cigarrets’s smell..hihi..lucky us to have you, bro! very lucky us…..

always remember our family’s song..

"kangen" (piano version)..
piano played by :ari; sang by: ake

Ada bayangmu dalam kesendirianku
mungkinkah kau alami juga rasa ini
mestinya kau ada disini bersama diriku
memadu kasih kita berdua selamanya

kangen aku pada dirimu
tiada akan dapat kuobati
tanpa kunikmati
senyummu……
ooh,,senyummu…

Tiada lagi dapat kubuat
Untuk hilangkan rasa ini
Lagu ini takkan membuat
Hasrat hati yang kumiliki

=we are family=
ari.rara.adit.rima.ake.indie

——————————–never regret,what u have made—————————-

sometimes, i just wanna be the heartless man, who can always close both eyes, two ears, one mouth, to the depth of heart breaking-girls gossiping-physical pains

sometimes, it’s always fun to do what u wanna do, get what u wanna get, split what u wanna split, drop what u consider to be the garbage

but u can’t
u can’t
u can’t
u can’t

=i am blamed for my sin=

i am not coming home in the next several months..
do you want to know what it means?
it means sacrifice..

i am not giving you the real hug and kiss as most people could do to their dearest friends , because i am showing those affections inside our hearts that connected to each other’s feeling
do you want to know what it is all about?
it tells you about being care and loveable in the most respectful, secretful, and sweetest way..

i am not seeing you in person every second..every minute every day..every month.every year..
do you feel curious why i could handle that?
i just don’t need that for now..because you are already kept in mind..every second, every minute, every day, every year…
and the most important in my every breath..

i am not crying due to missing someone so deeply..but i am keeping smiles and trying to remember every happy momment that has been trough together instead..
do you want to question why?
i have the definite answer : that is the way i thank God for the bless that has been shared to this amazing life…and a great man i adore..

i am occupied to the awkward ways in other’s point of view..(perhaps..)
but that are the ways i survive…!!
you don’t need to raise more questions whether i am coming home or not..
because this is now my home..
these are my pleasure times to be enjoyed…
this is now my amazing lovelife and friendship that can never be seperated even though there is real HUGE distances that keeps you all and i apart!

..at least

people could try to be a mature man..
who could not only make his own way to fit his environment,,but also appreciate another about someone’s right..
again…
it’s all bout maturity..
which could be roughly described in my own opinion..as the heaps of gentleness, truth, the will to admit our loss and so does our own flaws..and the praise for someone else’s success that someone has…
however..that definition doesn’t grow without context…here, in ozzy..i’ve seen a lot of ppl who are trying to get their maturity through a hard process…a process that could only be reached by their interaction with other ppl, the interaction that allow them speak their opinion loud instead of hiding it in their heart and leaving the problems unsolved…

that’s not the way maturity works…again..it’s according to my point of view..
i do understand that each person has their own way to behave in his/her own term of maturity..but still, i guess the general opinion about the term maturity heavily related to the ability to face and handle the obstacles that may surround his/her life….instead of…fleeing away…bcause this is life, dude,,u can not always have good times..happy events and cheerin moments…it is life that always gives us two sides  of coins…with the 50% probabilities, u can never be assured which side would you get everytime lifes toss the coins..so..u can not always flee…u just can’t…:)

hence…
let’s think..
you think..
i think..
we think..

it’s not only my problem..it’s ours..

*for my beloved psychology…i do miss the previous honest.."clean"..competitive ways in reachin the whatever positions in political circle..i just don’t like the way people have done to tease each other…back talking and stabbing..leaving  rude comments without names..you are not playing hard to get, dude..you actually drop yourself into the lowest stage of your cognitive maturity process…it’s a shame, i must admit…additionaly..you are psychology students..who are always thought to respect other’s differences..

cheers..
rara,
who still concern about the unity of all psyUIstudent…:)
luvyaaaa and missyaaa…

i’m not supposed to write anythin in Indonesian..but..

hueeeeeeeh

3 bloody big asses written in english closely have made me sick (hahaha…seems tht i was the moron one, wasn’t me??!! , livin in a english-languaged world but cursing all ass tht done and assessed in a proper english academic writing ! huahahaha)

dududusyalalapapapap..maybe i just miss the stupid-do-what-u-wanna-do ass when i was in indo..haha…no offense, schools!

different country ..different system, dude..different level of madness! hahaha…

but one thing forshoo, one mission has already well accomplished..writ-ass - some love-complicated-stuffs (big applause for new couples here….haw haw haw…plok..plook..plook!) hahahahaa….dudududu..congratulations guys..followin the most romantic stories made by raditya and emilitaa..hahaha..bne is a real a city of love, dude! (i am not being jealous, indeed, eventhough i didn’t make it here…–did we?) haha…surely not..we were in the middle of the far far away distances i guess..*confused…coz i am not the one who get objected here..supposedly..haha..*

soo……………..fuuuuuuuuh……..i really don’t think tht i am gonna advertise myself as a person who could find somebody’s partner! hahaha..ennnuuuuuuuuuuuffffffffff………………not about the "treat" tht they always promise me, nor the heightened degree of gratitude i got evertytime i did it well…

i just wanna assure and maintain my own partnership..hehe..as well as my social lifes here,,my pray for the success of the study,,and my unlimited and countless love for everybody who is likely to be loved by me!..*kiss and hugs!*

–don’t drop ur tear, friend! hahahaa–

hooraaaaaaaay! at the end of the writing i finally realise tht i didn’t use indonesian at all!!

*padahal kangen (lhoo?!! weew,,,it’s not indonesian..it’s malaysian!hahaaha…xp)

big grin!

rara-adel-whatever u wanna call me!

btw, how PLOOOK..PLOOK..PLOOOK does actually sound in english?? i just knew that wooof woof stands for guk guk in indonesian!! hahahahaha..

*tht would definately remind me of si celeng adit! haha..when do u have ur free time, dude? and where is my HOT YUMMY CHILLI THAT YOU PROMISED MEEE ??? xp

don’t waste your time on me u’re already

the voice inside my head..

MISS YOU!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxP

guten abend..:)

heute ist der neunundzwanzigte Marz

Es ist zehn nach neunzhen…

ich bin adelle, und ich bin schon 20 Jahre alt (ich habe ein geburstag Am funfzhenten Februar) .ich komme aus indonesia.ich wohne in saint lucia.ich studiere psychologie.  Ich mochte psycologin werden. Ich mag Schokolade und Orangesaft. Ich habe keine job (aber, ich habe eine gelt! haha). Meine eltern wonhst in pondok gede.Ich habe ein bruder, er heiBt Keke. Er ist erst 16 Jahre alt, aber ich habe keinen schwester. Ich bestelle die Gemusesuppe und auch eine Tasse Kaffe immer. Sie (Gemusesuppe) schmeckt ganz gut ! xp..besonders, wann macht meinen Mutter !

Am Montag komme ich zur Uni (von acht bis vier Uhr)

Am Dienstag habe ich psyc2050 und psyc2020 Klasse

Von Mittwoch bis Donnerstag habe ich Psyc Klasse!

Am Frietag gehe ins Kino!! (und ins die Kneipe..gyahahaha..)

Am Samstag spiele ich guitar..(hoho)

Am Sonntag….schalffe ich !!!!!

auf Wiedersehen!

it’s unlike the cell membrane that consists of two lipid layers..

each layers are separated with proteins that controls the flow of materials (specially potassium/sodium ) inside and outside the cell body..

hoaaa

enough talkin about neuro (haha..as my unconcsiousness develop a god associations between typing with memorizing all the cell-thingy, the automatic processing then DOES occur!)

hahaha..! but it has, indeed a relevant connection though..

in a relationship..the only thing that matters is TRUST…and that only thing-which i have so far has been initiated by the love and care for someone that i know…separated miles-miles-and-miles away…

no "protein" in between..

wedocareforeachotherwedoloveeachotherwedosaythatwearedoinggreatsofar

wedomantainthiskindauniquerelatinoshiptobegoodpartnersinlife..

just you - TRUST - me

heehe..

GOOD to have trust in between then…:)